Today really hasn't been the best day I have ever had. I am emotionally struggling with today. I have broke down a couple times today. My emotions are crazy right now. I know myself well enough to know where I am pushing my limit mentally. And I can feel that right now. I feel like every muscle in my body is tense and I am on edge. I think I need to go on a walk and clear my head and think and pray. Speaking of walking....
My exercise today was slim to none. I didnt do much. I had one of the worst nights sleep in a really long time. A year ago I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and I wear a cpap machine to bed every night. If it leaks during the night at some time it really throws off my entire night of sleep. Thats exactly what happened last night. When I dont get enough sleep, I can fall asleep at the drop of a dime. This is no joke. I can be in mid sentence and start snoring. Its so important that I get better sleep. The fun/terrible part of my cpap is that it tells me exactly how long I slept the night before. I checked it before I went to work and I slept a total of 5.6 hours. That may seem like alot but if I dont wear my cpap properly, I stop breathing 15+ times an hour. That is a VERY scary thing. So enough about the cpap, back to the exercise. I didn't do so well today. I've just kind of kept to myself. I might have felt a little better if I had but it just wasn't in the cards in my head today.
I kind of broke a rule that I had been super proud of today. I had a can of diet coke. I know one isn't going to do a ton of damage but I was hoping I could have gone a couple weeks without ever having one. Oh well, things happen. As for portion control and what I had to eat, I ate again, the same small bowl of cereal for breakfast and had a left over hamburger for lunch. For a snack (this might sound gross) I had a cold leftover hamburger. No bun, no ketchup, nothing, just a plain ole cold hamburger. It was yummy!
I am going to continue on with the goals tomorrow but the rest of the day, I was to make sure that I can get my happy back today and focus on me and RELAX. I'm working on it...
Till tomorrow.....
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